So, let me back up a little bit. First of all, I have been largely absent from the bloggy world over the past....eight months or so? It's sort of a blur to me, because that's how life has been. I've been on the computer so much with my online teaching job that I just haven't had the inspiration, time or desire to sit down and write. But, there's something about writing that calms me and focuses me on what's really important.
What's really important is not the daily ups and downs of life, although God holds our hands through these roller coaster moments. What keeps me grounded is knowing that in the midst of paying bills, doing dishes, teaching, working, ministering...God is IN me. God is WITH me.
I definitely needed a little bit of reminding about that this week. When someone I respect described me in bland and unappreciative terms, I wondered where I had gone wrong. It wasn't so much that I believed these things about myself, but I questioned how this person could know me and yet not really know me at all.
I brought all these discouraging thoughts to the Lord and told Him I was ready to follow HIS lead if only He would make that clear. I'm not sure why, but I had only a tiny sliver of faith that God might actually give me clear guidance.
Then, I went to the post office and received a note that reminded me that God always has a plan and this time He gave me a little glimpse into His plan so that I wouldn't lose hope.
I'm sure this all sounds a bit vague right now, but for me it was a huge moment. God cared enough about my little problem to let me see that He's working on it too. I still don't know the answer exactly (although I have an idea!), but I have renewed faith and clear direction on what to do next.
So, this week I'm thankful for:
- God's Direction
- A newly decorated basement (so cozy!)
- 2 days until the retreat (counting them down...I can't wait)
- A birthday girl who makes me smile (SOOO glad she's in my life)
- The addition of a cabin to our family
- My super supportive and wise husband whose words of encouragement helped me through this week.